Tuesday, April 27, 2010


Sometimes, I just feel defeated.

You have been there. You do the best you can, but it is never good enough.

I know we live in an evil world. I know that I am not part of this world.

Still, the load gets heavy.

I have childishly threatened to run away, somewhere no one knows me.

But I know better.

It's the same world everywhere you go.

David knew this. He had failed, he had felt unloved, he had fallen into a pit.
But he knew, just like I do, that God was there.

God, investigate my life; get all the facts firsthand.

I'm an open book to you; even from a distance, you know what I'm thinking.

You know when I leave and when I get back;

I'm never out of your sight.

You know everything I'm going to say before I start the first sentence.

I look behind me and you're there, then up ahead and you're there, too--

your reassuring presence, coming and going.

This is too much, too wonderful--

I can't take it all in!

Psalm 139:1-6